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.Friday, November 06, 2009 @ Friday, November 06, 2009 Y

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My broken heart like a wave

My shaken heart like a wind My heart vanished like smoke

It can’t be removed like a tattoo

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in

Only dusts are piled up in my mind

(say goodbye)

-haru haru(day by day)

awesome song rights?! HAHAHA!it's certainly is lah.so let's summarise what happened today in this blog (:

went school,went library made myself awake before the classes by listening to some songs first.then met huiyin and virina outside the library walked to LT 20.headed to psychology tutorial after that.seriously,i don't learn anything there! then after that headed to design canteen.had lunch with vincent (: so long never meet him le eyy! hahaha! then after that headed to have tutorial with yiwei class,rushed to meeting then had sub comm meeting then the scholarship thinggy.awesome.

applause to huiyin,farah,kesha,jasmine and heather.

when i was there i was thinking to myself why isn't it me who get it.guess i have not worked as hard as them.yes,they do deserve it a lot.especially farah!

i'm going to FO interview on wednesday! vincent,virina and huiyin encouraged me to go! so yes,i'll go.i'm not doing for anything but the experience.yes, what huiyin says is very true.there's going to be sometimes when i ain't with my friends and i have to adapt,thinking about it again aren't i doing it? as in TPCLIQUERS i do not have anyone there what.i did it all by myself rights?! but it's okay! i just need to have more experience.

TPCLIQUERS, have been doing really great.very proud of the new main-comm members.i ain't bias okay! i find them great so i give them the praise they should be awarded with! HAHAHA!

alright that's all.i'm so tired lah.BYE!

.Thursday, November 05, 2009 @ Thursday, November 05, 2009 Y

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I draw you on a white paper
Your warm smile envelopes me
Is this love?
I see you even when I close my eyes

-starlight tears

do not know why but today i just feel that italic is the nicest font (: tomorrow.hmm, should i even wish? i don't know ehh! someone help me ahh! my decision was made but now i'm doubting myself. what is this? okay we should just move on rights?

morning went school after awhile saw audrey.she joined me in the consultation room.wah! it's been ages since last time i sat and talked to her.after awhile her friend.aaron joined us.something like that the name.can't really remember (: today wasn't really a good day.i was bursting again.i couldn't stand it when people just don't think of others the feelings.you think i ball ah?kick here and there.don't want me kick me to others when you need me you're nice to me.

went home, and tada! my msn can already.was really excited cause i really looking forward to chat with eugene (: cannot blame me mah.i very the long time never chat or sms him eyy. next person that i was looking forward to chat with is audrey yong (: i don't know why i got alot to talk to her eh.it's like everything nonsense also can talk.which i like (: yupppsss.

sorry ah today abit very chatty after the thing happened.

virina sarah yeo yan ling!, thanks for being there for me.

.Wednesday, November 04, 2009 @ Wednesday, November 04, 2009 Y

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at this month of time,peple are very busy with projects,assignments or test but some people just find the entertainment by spamming people blogs.how interesting! putting not their real names,using people's names.why don't they just be more brave and confront me face-to-face rather than doing all these.to them its a form of entertainment,obviously they have some mental problems or emotionally unstable.

to FAYE: there's no point for me to guess who you are.so stop wasting my time.

to other spammers: get a life and i hope you'll find more natural or normal kind of entertainment.

P/S : i won't be writing anything on my tagboard.so anything text me ya! (:

.Tuesday, November 03, 2009 @ Tuesday, November 03, 2009 Y

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TO SPAMMER AKA AS PEOPLE WITH NO LIFE,

PLEASE MOVE ON.I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU WHEN YOU KNOW ME! PLEASE AH! GET YOURSELF A LIFE MAN! IF YOU NOT HAPPY THEN JUST FUCKING LEAVE LAH.

. @ Tuesday, November 03, 2009 Y

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i am very stuck with big bang song,haru haru because of the meaning behind it (: go hear and listen to the meaning and you'll understand.HAHAHA! been very busy with my personal stuffs.other than that i should be glad that i'm over the things that i thought i couldn't. it wasn't as hard as i imagined.(:

had a really fun day yesterday,really.full of laughter.you can ask huiyin what's wrong with her shoulders yesterday that made me laugh alot.first she was mimicking what virina says about beans then she did the "over the holidays" gesture.my! i laughed till i couldn't even forget it.it's been a very long time since i laughed so much.but still i did! grats to me for fulfilling two jobs at one go!

.Friday, October 30, 2009 @ Friday, October 30, 2009 Y

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was reading F!'s blog or actually livejournal when he says that we don't know which friend will stay with us even after we doing something wrong.i thought of my own friends and what i was brought to my own friends problems.

what i really do believe is that people do change and when they are being nice to you it doesn't mean they want to be your friends.this is the second time that i've learnt a lesson this year that i shouldn't be friendly.or should i be dao ? this confuses me.you were once so nice and close to me but suddenly you went away like wind? you told me i'm still your bestfriend on the first day of school this sem 1.2 in mensa. i wanted to doubt you but my conscious says no! i didn't but now. i don't seems to believe you. i'm sorry if it really hurts you but you're hurting me even more.i hope that we're still being bestfriends with each other again.

and to F! i'm giving up on you. i've given up on you once but you came back to me so fast without me realising it. i was once determined to forget you and i succeeded so i don't see why can't i do it again. F! don't come near me okay! cause it'll hurt me. i tried to to move on with a new life but my heart kept going back to you.why does this happens to me? god,i'm sorry for not being able to stop thinking of him.i can't do anything,i don't have the strenght when i'm too in love with him.

.Tuesday, October 27, 2009 @ Tuesday, October 27, 2009 Y

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i hate it when she tags along everywhere we go.why is this feeling coming back to me! F!

today is the officially the bad day for me.woke up with a bad dream,scolded my beloved mum.sorry mum.went off on the bus was re-caping what i just did then i realised how ungrateful i am to mum.wept,texted nadiah on that.went school tried my best to look okay though i aint well.then someone just triggered the whole thing when i'm very vexed then it just came out crying.thanks yiwei for being my side.i know you're the only friend who understands me fully.can't imagine if you wasn't in the same course as i am.everything will be in a mess then.rights?! (:

one has to just trigger it when i'm down and i'm trying to chill myself out and it will just come all out.i do not know why im really very weak nowadays.i can't be like he says i am! i need to be strong.cause the weakness i have is too obvious for people like him and i don't want to be another victim of a heartbreaker.

god help me in whatever i am doing please.

.Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @ Wednesday, October 21, 2009 Y

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went to school on monday and got 2 days MC for tuesday and wednesday. some says cause i have school phobia, school allergy etc. all wrong! hahhaha! well, its partly cause of school i had late lunch then gastric reacted up which led to food poisoning cause the food i ate was spicy!

sorry to those who are worried thanks to those who are concerned (: timetable is really ahh!.doctor says no more late lunch but how can when my lunch-es are all at 1pm.is that late?alternatively mummy says must eat breakfast but i no time to make or eat.stomach please be little bit considerate eh!doctor says no dairy food etc etc.all the food i'm going to eat have to check this and that.ahh!then must eat those watery food such as soup,stew ): really bad.have to hang on though.if not im going to hospital not school tomorrow. hahahha!

even before anything happens i realised that life is too short to waste time.you never know if the person you're talking to today will still be there tomorrow. asked my mom about when i was a baby, i've realised how much i've grown out to be.how much taller. used to sleep on mom's lap or with her on her bed, now sleeping on my own bed. i really want to treasure the people around me.losing you have made me realise how much we have to appreciate the people around me. somehow, i've also realised that no matter what, family comes first. i'm practising that really hard cause i want to love my family like how they do.